PengSiong.

so near yet so far...

thats the phrase that i would use it on me n her. yeps shes here in sp. but for some reasons, we only saw each other with a distance away .. tho we managed to talk on the phone and messaged but we could not meet... are we not fated to do so? or ?

well. tried to forget all these things . but i just simply cant do it. maybe i just loved her or maybe i jus cant get used without her .. everytime my phone recieved a message. i will open the message anxiously. but in the end, the msg i recieved from is NOT HER. why why why ?

i jus missed u terribly ... but what can i do ?

pondering ........

maybe the situation has turned into 1 sided love ...

PENG

hello guys

exams and tests are round the corner. and i really cant tune myself into the studying mood. how how how ? I MUST STUDY ! don wanna buang any modules...
in my opinion. the most jia lat module should or rather IS Measurements Building Works ( Structure ) haha.

well. had messaged her for awhile. got to know some news. haha. got ppl jio her. not 1 but a few. hahahas. din know shes tt popular ... well going to see her tmr. lucky gt pat arnd if nt ... hahahas.. realised that a guy is quite or rather super close to her ... shall nt disclose his name ... thats abit of disappointment ... she said she anti BGR ! ahahaha ... well well well ...

mhmm. somethings about pat. i realised that pat nt only attract gals but boys too .. hhahahahahahahaha !!!!

realised that everypost i published .. somehow or rather contains some thiings about her ... well maybe its true that this site is dedicated to her...

PENG

hello all ..

hope all of u had a nice weekend .. =)

mhmm. let me first talk about the short term goal for today. when i woke up i wanna do 2 things. Pack my super messy room and study !! but u know wad ? i did NEITHER of these ... din reach my goals. kinda sadded. still stuck on a pig sty room with no knowledge of my schoolwork in my brain. test coming soon .. im left with 1 week to study. OMG. thats like so fast eh ... gotta mug !!

now cannot try to study .. MUST STUDY ! anyone got any tips and tricks for studying ? lols. but for now. i know lappy n handphones are main points of distraction !! aha.

hmm .. talk a lil bout her ... another week has past. which means i would have been with her for the 3rd week ... but well .. i would say its all fated. like what she always say, 'lifes like that, what can we do ?'. to a certain extent. i believe that quote.. but i still believe our life is controlled by us. OURSELF ! on the other side. msg her yesterday .. till afternoon when she didnt reply? hmm .. hope i din do anything to make her angry again... well... din recieve any message today except for a person who called the wrong no.a**hole.

hmm. new week is coming. means monday blues are coming too.. hope tmr will not be that blue ...

may pop back for another post.

till then guys

PENG

mhmm. track back abit on yesterday. went sch then head down for training.

yesterday's trainingg was HELL. whole day footdrill. and i taught a few new drills to the sec 2s. then taught the sec 3s. THEN i had to teach a guy who is nt so good in marching. i played 3 roles.. is like wth. so tiring. ahahaha. but i enjoyed teaching. thats y im a cadet inspector. =)

before training. i thought about something... im gonna see her. and im gonna take the squad. but what i said in my prev post. whatever will come will come. face it ! but everything turn out still okay la. when i was gg to cp wif pat they all. she msg me saying training was fun! lol. shocked to recieve the msg... more shocking things was she wanna call me.. about drills. LOLS. n yeps. after dinner. chatted all the way frm CP till reach home. then i was knocked out. aha ! but its fun ... kind of like back to the past. ( abit la. ) but its enough ..

when will i get a call again ? ahahahaa

going out for a stupid proj later @ bugis. and shes going there. lol. wonder will i get to meet her ? hahahas. everytime when im out for proj. shes always outside near where im going to. so coincidence... well well well ...

mhmm.. rains coming ... ( thats wad she like) lol! got to go guys

till then.

adio amigos

PENG

hello guys,

well.. she did not remember i had my final theory test today. hmm. kinda disappointed.

but on a lighter note .. I PASSED MY FINAL THEORY TEST!!! hahahas. was quite worried that i would fail. but nevertheless. I PASSED ! hahaha. went for e trial test before the test. got bored of the questions.. ahaha. cleared my test in 10 mins. (oops. over hao lian liao) lols. 1 more practical test and im a driver too !!

well well. had a celebration cum farewell dinner at CP KFC for me n dan. he's going penang. n i passed my test. ahaha. but for that dinner. i had to wait AGAIN for pat another hour ALONE! damnit. lucky i bought newpaper if not i would have been BORED TO DEATH !

hmm. on the train i crafter a new phrase for myself more on the relationship side. lols

"Once bitten twice shy. twice bitten. NEVER TRY"

alrite. tests and exams are coming. going to study .. tho I TRIED TO study. =)

till then guys.

PENG

well well well. im not sure whether i created this blog becos of her. Maybe i jus want to have a "let out" point. don wan to bottle up all my feelings and thoughts. thats y i created this blog. ... but it seems all all post are all related to her ..

well. theres training this friday. i really dunno wad to do when i see her ? face it or shun away... im in a delima. but i tink i should face it. becos im a CI ? well. thats bullshit. its so hard to face reality ...

went for driving. well. today din really performed quite well.. the car kept vibrating. its an old car. damn it. maybe my skill aint that good yet huh. anyway cleared 3 more test route. 6 more to go .. the instructor reccomended 10 -12 more lessons before my tp. OMG. it will be sooooo expensive... learn driving till no money..

Final theory test tmr.. wonder will she remember that its my test tmr? told her before... hmm... will she send a good luck msg for me?? well ... i REALLY WONDER ...
anyway. wish me luck tmr. wanna clear driving asap.

learn driving learn riding. letting her to be my first passenger used to be my goal for me... but now ..

well shant talk about those sad stuffs tmr...

till then

PENG

hais.

2 things ...
my heart sank when her friend told me her feeling for me is not there anymore after she wanted to be friends back ..wad can i do ? im damn disappointed.
Somemore, when u gt to know the news, you have to act as if ur still okay still can hang on .. but deep down ... my heart shattered.

the other thing. her friend said she msg me becos she wanted me to concern her. But i tot joking with her with some shooting will make her feel more happy. But it turned out otherwise ...

Well .. Maybe lady luck is always never on my side ...

gt to know 1 thing. frm my horoscope. its says that i will treat my girlfriend like shes a child.pampering her ...my horoscope ranked no 1 for that..
well. thats kinda true. its only when you love that person then you'll treat her real well, real precious. and thats wad i do.. but ...

well.. at least she is free from all those stresses shes been facing.. and i dunno whether i should be happy or sad n disappointed.

well .. im speechless ...

heard Rick Price - Heaven Knows.. thats maybe the song for me now.

PENG

greetings to all.

Hmm. let me first summarise all the itinary for today. school. slack wif pat, went for etrial for final theory, meet up wif pat n dan, home sweet home.

school,
1 word to describe. MAMPOS. i have no idea wad the lecturer is talking. and test is like 2 weeks away ? and bloody hell. we got 6 papers to take... hais. shall no talk bout this.

talking bout pat. wanted to strangle him ! waited for him 1 hour and 5 minutes @ outram station. damn. tts enough time for me to read my 600 plus sms. mostly its hers .. n shyt. reading those things really made me think back to the past. is deleting all those messages away a solution? but i jus cant bear to press yes to delete. found those messages real precious...

going back school tmr for the stupid speech day. hmm may or may not get to see her ... well .. whatever will come. will come. so jus see how tmr...

her piano exam is tmr... hope she'll be able to pass with flying colors =) cos thats something she's been worried on for a long long time..
you'll pass =) don worry

" we're always so near yet so far. tts y we drifted apart.. and now we're really apart .. "

PENG

i'm just thinking ...

when you needed me you'll find me ..
but when i'm not needed ... i'm just like a old book left on the shelf..

jus wad am i to you ? damn it.

feeling damn confused.

PENG

LITTLE WONDERS- ROB THOMAS
let it go,
let it roll right off your shoulder
don't you knowthe hardest part is overlet it in,
let your clarity define you
in the end
we will only just remember how it feel
sour lives are madein these small hours
these little wonders,
these twists & turns of fatetime falls away,
but these small hours,
these small hours still remain
let it slide,let your troubles fall behind you
let it shine
until you feel it all around you
and i don't mind
if it's me you need to turn to
we?ll get by,it's the heart that really matters in the end
our lives are made
in these small hours
these little wonders,these twists & turns of fate
time falls away,but these small hours,these small hours still remain
all of my regretwill wash away some howbut i can not forget
the way i feel right no
win these small hours
these little wonders
these twists & turns of fate
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away but these small hours
these small hours, still remain,still remain
these little wonders
these twists & turns of fate
time falls awaybut these small hours
these little wonders still remain

hello there...

nothing much happened today ... went for driving lessons =) met a cool instructor and a new VIOS ... kinda cool .. learnt 3 point turn, u turn .. cleared 1 test route and the best thing is EMERGENCY BRAKE !!

its cool to e brake beside pedestrians.. cos they will like stare at you blankly. their mind must be thinking. WTH.. how does this person drive .. lols. but nevertheless... ITS FUN !! U turning on a busy road is fun too .. well ... overall ... ITS FUNNNNN !!!

hmm journey back and fro to ubi kinda reminded me the past.. where i will get messages or phonecall from her ... kept checking my phone for messages or calls..even during my lessons .. but NOTHING. No messages .. no missed calls ...

hais.. well .. im still trying to get use to all these ... tho 1 week has past ...
if i had a chance .. will we still be together ? hmm ..

till then guys ...

PENG

these few days, things are never the same again

i missed the wake up call you gave

cos the first thing i hear is your voice ...

i missed talking to you

where we started to chat happily

i missed the messaging

where you accompanied me

i missed the journey to ubi

where we would talk until my lesson starts ...

i missed the sms

where you would encourage me to have fun for my lessons ..

i missed the phone calls u gave

after the lessons where we chatted all the way home ..

i missed the talk at the kopitiam where i will drink wadever..

where we will chat non stop and hang up reluctantly ..

i missed sending you home

tho only 1 time, its was such a memorable one

i missed your concerns

i really missed everything ...

who says memories do fade ?

memories doesnt fade

you go pass them, you'll remember those memories.

when your alone .. those memories keeps coming ...

what can i do ?

peng

it was supposed to be out 3rd week
but it all ended in a week.

It was supposed to be happy
now its left with sadness and emptiness.

It was supposed to be misses
now its all left with nothing.

i appear to be happy
but im sad

when im all alone
all those memories came back

why must things go this way ?

i really missed her. thats all i have to say.