PengSiong.

hey hey hey. lets track back once again.

hmm. yesterday. eat sleep shit and rotted at home. nothing much. lols. oh ya. kena pranked.. not once but twice by 2 different ppl. this shows how unpopular i am huh. lols. one is her and the other one is my junior. lols. for her prank can call this no. 91870236. msged her awhile. suan-ed a lil bit. but looks like she nv get soured. hmm ... L(==)_l for those who dunno wad it means. DO I LOOK LIKE I CARE ? lols.
hmm my junior jus used another no to msg me yet die die oso don wan tell me who she is. till i have to get "angry" hahas. its quite a gd tactic. =)
hmm. tts all for yesterday.

for today. mhmm. went for driving again. kena the same instructor and car again. its cool. hahas. went on road. improved my filter lane and u know wad ? i get to drive on a highway like bridge. HAhA> ITS SOOOO CCOOOOLLLL .. its not like those road but its a bridge. whoa. power. its like a 10 - 15 min ride. whole stretch withour much cars. cool. sped when the instructor is dozing. lol. shhhh ! 100 ? lols. i really liked driving. when driving u will tend to forget all your troubles... its really undescribable.(did i get it correctly? lols. who cared ! ahha) i jus LOVE driving. =) muacks!
hmm. din do really that well for my bloody parallel parking. tho i got in and DIDNT hit the POLE. lols. but overall today was fun becos if the stretch of "highway road" LOVE IT.

hmm. gonna be teacher on a teacher's day wdh. topic ? SS & POA. OMG. hope that wad they dunno is wad me n dan know. lols. hey students. tmr is teacher's day. erm. some appreciation hor. hahhahas

slp early. dream of SS & POA. lols. DREAM of driving on a long stretch of roads with the person i liked. =)

PENG

pardon me for my laziness yesterday. i cant be bothered to blog yesterday. lols.

went for driving. cool. funky instructor. learned parallel parking. hit the pole 2 times.

1st time. kns he bluff me go bang the pole.
Peng: sir reach already ?
Sir; nono abit more. ya come come come.
PIANG piang piang piang piang
Sir: hahaha. let u have the feeling of hitting the pole. kinda shiok rite ? I love hitting the poles.
Peng; =:= o0 wth. lols.

2nd time i go bang myself. after he taught me to use my agaration skill. lols. but hitting the pole is fun. hahahaha. piang piang piang piang piang. then all eyes will be on me.. IM A ATTENTION SEEKER. lols. but nevertheless i still managed to park my car inside the stupid lot. perfect! muacks! haha. =) action sehs.

went to kfc. our hq. with the usual peeps. saw afew friends. and someone i din wanna saw. lols. yeps. saw grace and nan chiau CIs. and 1 bugger. hahas, slacked went home msn-ed youtubed. slp. l0ls.

this morning dan linked me to a webbie to do test. its kinda accurate to a certain extent. this is my results. click here.

found out something which i dun wanna find out. both are my gd friends. happen to pass by this quote.
Pure love and suspicion cannot dwell together: at the door where the latter enters,
the former makes its exit. ~Alexandre Dumas (1802-1870)~
don worry so much ok friend ? everything will be fine. =)

all the best dan for ur work today =)
may pop back for another post.

PENG

well. did nothing much today except for sleeping watching 我的野蛮乃乃 and disturbing ppl. or rather ppl come and ka jiao me. lols.

hmm. 2nd hit of the day. ive got a fake link eh ? ive gt no intention to comment or whatsoever. hmm. i wouldnt say tt the incident affected me somewhere somehow. tho i may look alrite. ask urself. if uve been cheated what will you do ? so i asked myself back. what can i really do ? right ? no point i shoot u, u shoot me. in the end all die. so who cares ? i shall live happily ever after MYSELF or maybe my future partner =).. that sounded childish eh ?

on the BRIGHTER SIDE. hmm. seems like ive gt no bright side for today. lols.

why don i list out what my friends have been doing ?

hmm. eunice has completed her coursework while clara is still chionging maybe thru the nite ? lols. oh ya eunice thanks for the GOOD DEEDS tt ive done eh ? lols. looks like im a pig head frm now on. =;= lols.
hmm. dan has been resting on his 1st & 2nd day of work after he kena sore eyes. so take care bro. rest more.drink more.eat more. erm. is water and fruits. no beer.
pat going to sentosa interview. ps nv join u . lols. good luck for ur interview eh =) next time go sentosa can no nd admission liao.

erm. frm the tags.(re-replying) since im free =)
Grace says she missed my lameness ? lols. guys shes much more lamer than me. hahahas. shall lame chat someday.
Angie long time no see liao huh. lols. how have u been ? hows working for you ? hope life been smooth for u =)
michelle u haven die ar ? LOLS ! oso long time nv see u liao. maybe is u too long nv see me tts y u still living. hahahas. cos u always say i give u hi blood pressure. lols. condition more stabalize now ?
angie & Michelle. u 2 power sia. even i kept i hard as a secret u all still can find out my blog. lols. POWER !

oh ya. elaine & K. thanks so much for helping me out during those days. really appreciate it. thanks bro n sister ? lols. really appreciated it. K faster clear NS then we do camps again! lols. tt will be like 4 yrs time ? u come out i go in. lols!
pat dan wk thanks. =) thanks for helping me laughing thru those period. going to our HQ at KFC shoot the stupid auntie. we've tried all the food that KFC & Mac has on thier menu. lols.
and thanks for those who helped me thru the period. appreciated it.

what happen to me today why so naggy ? lols. maybe im putting my past behind. learning to fall out of love.

PENG

peng peng peng. wake up dude. its time. NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW!!!!

give me something which i can forget memories

jus let me hibernate. don wake me up.

i don wan to think of stuffs.

why am i still thinking ? why ? peng. its already obvious. so forget it.

can i go back the time where i don even know you ?

alrite.

sry for the fustration and spoiling ur mood on a monday.

PENG

ellos !

hmm. lemme summarise my day.
surprisingly i swept and mopped my whole house. LOLS. something has gone wrong somewhere somehow. hahahas.
crapped wif eunice. hahahahas.
created another blog for fun. pengsiong.wordpress.com.
went to CP for lunch wif pat & Dan. use lappy then head to Punggol plaza jus for a bubble tea and a cash converter walk. alot of fun stuffs there. =)
went home. youtube-ed army daze, i not stupid and lots of funny clips.till now.

realised something. im into english oldies. maybe becos if class 95. hahas. likes to listen until i slp. lols. dan say when someone is listening to oldies someone is gettting in love. is that true ? lols. but who cares ? hahahas. oh don get me wrong. my oldies is not those hotel california era. its more of recent oldies. oops. contradicting. hahas.

wanted to find some jobs. but those i looked at seems doesnt fit me. maybe im not confident enough to take up these jobs. hmmmmmmm .... i wanna clean aeroplane ! hahas. loved planes. those who need job i got lobang. $10/ hour. help MRT pump petrol.. LOLS !

oh ya. eunice say she say i cute so i must write good things about her. and let me list out the good things shes done. firstly badmouthed me in her blog.LOLS. secondly say i pig then say i pighead.which is supposed to mean cute. hahahas. oh ya. last deed shes done. she sent me Secret's OST. which i cannot play cos i don have i tunes. LOLS.
hahaha. eunice liddat can ? good enough ? LOLS ! but nevertheless. im ur teacher. LOLS.

oh ya. competing with clara now. see who write finish first. LOLS. im winning =)

no mood. acted to be happy when outside. but when im at home. i start to think think think and think. nothing else. needa keep myself occupied. cant access her blog which i got the link yest. maybe she deleted it. hmm. well. ive got no say over it.

ive gotta buy eraser. maybe a tiny weenie one. i jus wanna forget forget and forget.

its jus another day without you. im trying hard to fall out of love.

PENG

well. sometimes mood changes within a few seconds. and yeps. she saw my blog. and i have no comments. speechless. tell me how to react when i get those kind of answer ? still act nonchalent ? as if nothing happens ? well... like wad the song says. im in need of a shoulder... hmm..

surprisingly saw her blog too. and im im im. lost of words.

anyone can spare me an eraser ?

PENG

hmm.lets track back abit about yest.

woke up went for driving and i was late. on my way there saw pat and an accident. thats kinda sad. what a way to start my day. and i realised that the victim was my friend's friend. its kinda sad. a life is gone jus like that. life is so fragile.. a moment your talking to someone. that someone may be gone at the very next second... hmm ..

on a brighter side. driving. i got back the same instructor. better than the uncle many times. lols. need more practice at slopes. nvm about that.

erm. went down for training. i tink it was a better one. lols. taught/ revise the baton drills. and went to serangoon where i did many stupid things down there. lols. well .. thats peng siong. lols. well. shall not elaborate more about it. met up wif my friends. and i dunno why. my jaws are tired yesterday. aha ! laugh too much liao.
saw a F-uped cadet frm another sch which makes me so so tempted to bash him up. kns. hair haven grow finish wan to act ah beng. wth. so u better watch out man ! shall not let that fool to spoil my day.
and yeps. went back to training. played a revised version of captain's ball with the rest. and at first i played nuetral party. but after tt i went to help her team. lols. oh ya. when we're talking she kena hit by the ball. tho i tried to save her. but then my hand not long enough. hope shes alrite nw. =) oh ya. she passed her piano exams. hahahahas. congrats.

recieved some msgs frm her. and im so sry that i made her cry. hmm .. felt sad at that point of time. hais. told her the link to this blog which im supposed not to give. becos its all about her post. hmm. but i need to do this to clear up some misunderstanding. well well well ... shall not brood over it so much .. what ever will come will come. no point brooding over it. shall see how when she views this blog.

on a lighter note. i went into hibernation. slpt at 11 plus woke up at 12 plus. whoa. tink my battery ran out yesterday after training. so im full and energetic now ! ahahas.

may pop back for another post later at nite. =)

PENG

hmm. evening

lifes back to normal. a lil slacking now. hahas. becos. IM DONE WITH THOSE BLOODY TEST AND EXAMS ! haha.. building services is my most confident paper man. felt like beoming a fire safety manager next time. hahas. fire is fun. fire don kill u know ? its the smoke hahahahas. well. im happy until the release of results. hahahahas. so don make me sad during this period ...

hmm. hrd tt my mom don allow my bro to go for kayaking becos its 7th month ? well. i shot back my pap and say its not only our family is chinese others are chinese yet they allow thier child to go, and as usual kena AK-47 and shot off target. which means nagged at me and he went off topics. went into ridiculous topics. hais.
hmm. but on the other hand.i do understand that they are worried about our safety.

my father quoted a few things which made me ponder.. since the start of 7th month, 5 busses in msia had been into accidents. thats kinda eerrieee.. is it jus coincidental or issit the other way round ? well. its up to u to think about.

the other thing is tt he said his friend son has been in coma ever since he joined NS. think he's been in coma for a few years already. kinda sad. send ur son to NS and ur son get into coma. thats very saddening. hope that he will wake up soon .. be healthy. not forgetting the parents.. don dwell onto it so much. your son will be fine ..

updated news. my dad called back. saying that 2 of his worker is strucked by lightning. so its kinda eerrriiieee.. hope thier fine. all the way from their own country to work let their family have a better life.. its kinda sad ..
hope 7 mth will pass fast and everyone will be fine, healthy and happy .

on a lighter note, been to CP with the usual gang. dan got his job so congrats. and good luck to pat in getting his job. as for me. i shall join the SLC ltd. shake leg company =) hahahas. relaxed myself.
so tmr i shall have fun driving in the morning, jogging or Cs-ing the have fun F-ing ppl in the unit and enjoy my swearing in. SEE GAL TIME. hahahahas

for now i shall go slack awhile more b4 i go polish my shoe ! so dan watch out ! llols

pray hard for those in difficulty .. bad times will pass over soon ...
PENG

greetings. evening or rather morning now. hahas.

jus managed to study after 10 plus hours of studying spreaded over 2 days. lols. slpt at 8 am till 12 noon. woke up. no mood to study. went to scout for food in my house. watch tv. went online.. till 2 plus 3 then started studying. but after awhile my eyes turned to my lappy and started playing game ! hahas. but managed to study after that. tink i got injured for writing too much notes for the 1st time. lols. hand pain back oso pain. l0ls. i seem to be super hardworking for this paper. or did i jus start to be hardworking on my last paper ? AND YES ! ITS MY LAST PAPER !!! im free after tmr. hahahahahas. so ppl. find me go out drink kopi ok ?

hmm. halfway studying recieved a msg frm her. shocked me. asked whether am i at sch cos she saw dan. (dan n pat was back in sch doing some np stuffs went to meet them later on) but u knw why she msged me ? cos she left somethings inside the room and wanted to take .. wth ! still thinking that i chiong down after i saw her msg thinking that i may get to see her ... wasted. when i reached sch she was already on the bus...

never love a love that hurts ..
never hurt a love that loves ...

to think tt im a CI for punggol for almost 2 year and tt bloody OM couldnt recognize me ? tt pisses me off and ive got to sign in all those shit. cos im a visitor ? ex student with my hair a lil longer ? wth. then y don they set up another post at the side gate. ppl oso come in from there. golden and longer hair too. fools .. kapala square ( squarish head )

well. nvm bout tt. went CP for dinner as usual frm sch to cp. its only our laughter and voices that filled the whole bus. same applies to wherever we go. lols ! when we 3 get together. we wreak havoc. LOLS. finally got my earpiece. hahas. its a nice one =) so don be jealous ok ? lols i knw im lame...

joining a competition. caltex national karting competition even tho i nv kart b4. lols. so guys wish my team luck. hahahahas. im a racer =)
check it out here. http://nationalkarting.org/

alrites. shall mug abit more b4 my bed finally seduce me ...

PENG

morning peeps. time to wake up drink coffee lo ! hahahas.

well. talking bout coffee. its my fav drink. hmm i've been addicted till sth like those old uncle cannot make it without kopi O in the morning. lols. only diff is mine is KOPI. hahas.

hmm. mugged thru the nite while u ppl are sleeping happily dreaming. managed to cover only 3 topics. well.. its damn thick sia. writing those notes n stuffs. well. i study hard i play harder too. l0ls. played game along the way ...

hmm. dan hope u had dreamed of ur dream gal huh. compassvale one huh. LOLS.

luckily my lappy is there for me. hahas. accompanied me thru the nite.. used it for games. a talk cock session then CLASS 95. lols. downloaded some songs along the way. haha.

oh ya. its the earliest post ive ever posted. lols. and eunice. i win u liao. get onto my blog earlier than u. lols !

alrite.time to mug awhile more then shall go for kopi session with mom and dad. =)

PENG

well.

didnt blog yesterday. too shag ar. after my accounts. accounts is a brain cell killer. dammmmmmmiittt. hmm. did balance sheet which can never balance. cash flow that never meet. l0ls. passable i tink...

did alot of things today. went online. buy food. watch tv and SLEEP for 5 hours. wth. and yeps. my alot of things done is never productive. hahas. theres test on thur. building services 2. hmm. lots of things to rmb .. well. jus wake up. no mood ar.. later shall mug thru the nite...

yeps. need to take a cloth frm dan to wipe up my blog... dusty. and kena bugged by some bugger. u knw who ... so don believe those bugger's msg. =)

oh ya. needa thank those who visit my blog regularly. giving me supports. hahas. oh ya. positive ones. okay daniel ? lols..

till then guys.

PENG

evening.

2nd post for the day. well nothing much happened. hmm. supposed to meet dan earlier for a study session. luckily before i went out i msged dan. waiting for his reply for some time then i realised he was asleep. LUCKY haven go out. if not i will be waiting and waiting. thats part 1.

at cp. as usual saw patrick's gd friend. hmm.. then no space for us to build out HQ. l0ls.wanted to go to library. on our way there. saw someone looks familiar. ITS my ex wif her bf. l0ls. shock sia. said hi. exchanged some smiles and waves. hahhas. yeps halfway ther. thinking of getting a new earphone. but changed my mind to a speaker. then shopped frm popular to cyber active. was about to pay already then change my mind not to buy again. l0ls. why i so undescisive. hmm .. walked out guess who i saw again? my ex again. l0ls yeps. walk a few steps. saw my old classmate. hahas. today is meet old peeps day ...

went kfc. atlast nv go library. went thre to study awhile till when im almost died pf starvation pat appeared. FINALLY. l0ls. ate. talked cock about his atc funny sia. hear stories about other areas. shared my fair share of stories too. laugh laugh laugh.

ate $7 bucks of food but not full. wth. went to buy cakes. but went home my bro eat finish. wth.

hais. a whole day of accounts. still don really understand it. how how how ? tmr is the thing lioa. don wanna buang my papers. think today have to mug thru the nite again .... well.. thats life. or rather its my life ...

till then peeps.

PENG

hello guys.

think ive been real moody for the past few days. the prev post i tink was the most jia lat post ive ever posted.sorry if i've ever offended anyone. but like what i say in my very first post. this blog is supposed to let me vent out all my fustrations. so bear with it ..

well. changed into a new blogskin, changed a new song. its 爱你不是爱给别人看 by 叶良俊. its a nice song. got many more songs to upload. thinking of making a playlist. but still in the midst of finding out how to do ..

nothing much happened yesterday. le shan's bdae. msg-ed her. it kinda recalls back some memories.. which i shall not elaborate.=) hmm .. tt made me kinda miss my MI days (millenia Institute) at bartley campus. tho it was short but we had many fun filled memories.. like skipping lectures together OOPS !! eat together tho only 1 stall =;= super old campus like want to collapse anytime. super old furnitures with all our vandalism on it. and yeps. we're "harry potters" group from 06B12 and we had our papa azlan. l0ls. hes a cool man.a great PE teacher and Form class teacher and sch's DM. at first we tot jia lat liao. kena DM as our class teacher. but HE's COOL !!! the coolest teacher i've ever met. but i tink he changed to ping yi sec.

oh ya. wanteed to study for accounts yesterday but only managed to read thru. becos i jus cant simply focus my mind on studies. so i read thru and i slp again. tho i slpet in the afternoon. hahas. well. ls will sure say me pig again. hahahahas

hmm. thinking of stepping down from NP. but ive tot thru. if it isnt for PSS np i wouldnt be the pengsiong today. so i shall repay all my "debts" and wait till theres a successor then i shall slowly step down. target ? next AGM. so yeps. unless what K teach me is useful. hahas aiming for greendale now.. hahahahas

so now. shall study till 11. then go cp find pat to welcome him back to singapore frm ubin. dots. and have lunch there. so peeps. if ur neaerby pop by and say hi ! hahaahs

PENG

warning. if u read this post. you're on ur own. i may offend you. read at your own discretion. so don get fcuked up after u read this. you made the choice yourself

ive did so much yet this is what i get. whatthefcuk. damn it. that was referring to both my unit and her.

im on a super lousy mood today and the past few days. been living aound aimlessly. jus cant get myself to study or do something. super moodless. why ? moodswing ? or why issit march babies are like that. all my march babies friends are feeling the same now. hais..

went for training. was still okay until i started the teach baton drill. i knew i cant make it when i said my 1st sentence of the day. 2 volunteers please ? then she n yl volunteered.on my way there i knew im somehow wrong somewhere.. talked abit and we;ve got back to the squad.

its been still endurable until the squad get over my head. played with water. cb. then pumped them in a pool of water. an eye for an eye. ive told them we can have fun but don go over my head. yet it stills happen. pissed off. talked to mr low the squad says they are ready yet i cant go over. so those reading this do understand not i don want to go and take squad and let u all stand there so long. but when he finished talking to us. i just don have the mood to carry onteaching, maybe im still pissed or im jus simply moodless.

conducted PT. forced myself to laugh to joke. but no use... brought the unit for running yet i get all kind of attitudes. eh guys. ur running so am i. when im a cadet at least i don disrespect CIs. when we got back cooled them down. then seriously im down. no mood to carry on. dan took over. me and wei kand went into the room. talked about it. both of us are disheartened....

is my way of teaching going way off course ? fcuk it. all cis have or could have have something on yet we are still back in tt bloody sch. for what ? we sacrificed outings, lessons, studying and resting time jus for np ? yet this is the attendance we get, the attitude we get, the respect we've gotten. we['re feeling down yet why cant u sense something ? imagine you go to a unit with high hopes of attendace. yet the attendance is sth that the whole unit can form 1 bloody squad ? wtf ? CIs do you understand ? kns.

ive been so lenient on "you" already why mus you make me so pissed off ? ive been trying to control on an account that last time we're still a couple.. uve said anything did i ever say no ? even cis say im abit biased to u but im still doing that yet i get all these shit ? WHATTHEFUCK ?

on the overall im real disheartened about that stupid unit. considering of leaving. which some of the cadets are happy. good for you ppl. its just why we can do so much things. yet we get all these shit. we've been nice all for ur own good yet we get this ? who like to be fierce ? who doesnt like to be friendly and amiable ? but somethings environment forces us. you blame us being fierce ? why don you blame it on the environment ? our mood on that day ? went to ask whether are you alright and no response was wad i get.

sometimes mood plays a big part on us ..... so mr mood can you please go away ?

had a heart to heart talk with wei kang at kopitiam. we've really talked alot. urge me to go for someone. we both are feeling the same thing. feeling super moodless. jus wan to lock up inside our room and play zi bi. jus cut ourself off from the bloody outside world.

over overall. im disheartened sad unhappy and stuffs. if youve read the post. and ur kinda pissed off ? here i say im sorry. well. the purpose of my blog is to vent out all mu fustrations .. thats all.. and sorry for those vulguarities.

PENG

welll guys. its blogging time!

nothing much. went for my PMM exams. was kinda confident until i reach SP. hais. tink my paper can pass but not very high .. thats all i tink and i shall not think too much bout that.

went maxwell market for lunch with poly friends. food there was nice. but its expensive. dots. l0ls. but i;ll be back there again. or i'll ask my father to ta pao or ask my father for dinner over there next time~

went for driving. was early. stoned there for 30 minutes. l0ls. see how ppl go for their TP test. tester looked damn fierce. haha. but my instructor for today say they act only hahahahahas. my instructor, shocked me with a few things.
- teach driving since 1969. WAY BEFORE I WAS BORN AND HE WAS DRIVING ALREADY !
- he used hokkien to teach me. hahahas. thats so fun. feels that im home. l0ls. used hokkien to talk. 1st time. i tot chinese was already so 'out' liao
- i din understand his english. l0ls.but only his hokkien and chinese. l0ls
- chiong up slopes. then let me learn directional change then teach me tips on 3 's' and crank course. l0ls. 2 chops today ! i tink if i fixed him as my fixed instructor im already a driver. =)
- well lesson was abit kan chiong BUT FUN ! hahaahs.

well went home. nothing much. till i heard a news. shocked me. i wonder how am i going to face the person tmr. jia lat lo...

thinking of jogging tmr... ppl "put my aeroplane" again but another person. wth. nvm i shall jog myself !

hmm. 90% of my post i end it so so sadly made u ppl feel so sad kinda sry bout that. so i shall end it on a lighter note today !

well. tmr NP ! MUST POLISH BOOTS. cos i need to show someone ! l0ls tmr will be a fun day. i hope =)

PENG

a very good late evening guys.

tho its late. but its always better late than never. well. nothing much to blog about today. had 2 study sessions today. 1 with poly friends 1 with pat.

poly friends - at paradiz foodcourt. studied, ate, pool-ed. i lost touch will pool.. damn it. it is like dunno how many dinosaur years since i played pool. hahahas.

pat - at CP. mac. well tink the manager seemed to know us already cos we've been going to mac so frequently. hahas.ate AGAIN ! ( i cant seem to grow fat even tho i ate a pile of food everyday ) see gals, talked cock. laugh like dunno wad. then finally tune into the mood of study UNTIL we saw a group of ppl. they're patrick's 2 best friend. its until then my mind shut off ! OMG. then i tune into disturbing ppl's mood. since then those tt i saw, all kena disturbed, kena GL. lols. thereafter we'll laugh like dunno wad again... we are simply retards. l0ls

reached home 7 plus. no mood to study. i seem to know everything about those notes but i dunno anything. contradicting eh ? jia lat. nowadays im so contradicting. hahas.gotta mug later on. hmm. realised how i study. i MUST NEVER slp now and wake up early tmr morning to study becos for the past 18 years. i can NEVER DO THAT ! or prob a few times out of the 18 years ? l0ls.

well. its been kind of elaine to do up a collage ( did i get it correctly? eng pte ltd one. l0ls) tho shes sick. shut down computer liao. still start up jus to send me the pic. at first i tot i sth bout np. but nops. its about "her", jia lat. make me think back all these memories again.. how how how ? maybe somethings no matter how far i run or i hide it will jus appear in front of you again ...

shall prioritise now. study now slp later wake up later go for exams on time and enjoy driving up and down slopes tmr ! hahas. that shall be the schedule from now till tmr 4 plus =)mus make myself real busy so there will be no time to think of others.

btw. looking for jogging kaki in the north east area. interested ? drop me a msg =)

PENG

well ..

i find it real hard to forget someone. even tho i said its time many times. but many a times i failed to do so .. saw her at school today.and not only today. when i see her last time normally i would walk over and talk to her. but dunno why i jus cant bring myself over there and talk even though i wanna see her. its something so so so contradicting eh ? its something like you wanna see someone yet when you see her your lost ! TOTALLY LOST ! you dunno wad to say wad to do. jus want to go away. but deep down inside your heart you jus wanna go over and talk and see her.

its real hard to forget someone.

anyone with ideas or method that helps ?

PENG

now then i know ...

love that are not meant to be ..

no matter how hard u cling onto it.

it will be the same as water running thru your fingers.

you cant catch it ..

well...

its really the time ...

PENG

1st hald of the day testedf my new downloaded games well .. not too bad.. only my graphic cards sucks a lil .. yeps. met up wif pat to study in the afternoon. from 3 plus 7 .. out of that 4 hours. i studied less than an hour. WTH. let me elaborate more huh. 1st hour. went to eat talked cock a little. then studied a little. till i cant take it. i started to look around distracting patrick.. till he buay tahan. hahas. then the next hour, psychoed him to go walk around CP cos the kfc auntie started her non stop hits radio. Power Auntie 999 FM. zzz walked into library saw a book.. 1001 books u must read before you die. wth .. flipped through. i know non of these books. lols. it looked so alien to me.. hahahas. well thats PEnG.. then slacked around CP and we ended up in mac. waiting for dan. and all hell broke loose from there. we laugh like fools, idiots and retards. and broke my record. the longest time i took to finish a fillet O fish. WTH. becos i was laughing non stop. hahas. today's study session had turned out into a Laughing and shooting session. shoot and laugh like nobody's business. LOLS

halfway in Mac, msg her to ask her sth .. chatted halfway she told me.. shes sad becos of a guy that she liked. which i know sometime back but i dunno whose that guy .. wth.. imagine that the person u love tells u that she likes someone. Yet she tells you what she feels about that guy. yet you have to act normal and reply her becos shes sad.while inside my heart is feeling real bad and sad. YET i have to console her teach her a lil on how to know more about that guy ? my heart really break sia. can u imagine ? hais. real sadded.

heard the song, 忘记你我做不到 by 张学友. reminds me of her again. hais .. its really a sentimental song. this song 我为什么还爱你 by 迷路兵 . both songs speaks out what my heart is feeling ..

started my day lazily, then happily then now sadded. maybe thats part and parcel of my life ... jus hope all these pass quickly.

whats love actually ? who says love is a happy thing ? maybe thats only my opinion.

PENG

.well did nothing much today. rotted at home downloading some games. aha ! so nothing much. tinking of changing my blogskin.. finding in progress. changed the blog's song. its kinda nice. found in some corner of my laptop while i was doing a mass clean up. hahhas.

PENG

hmm .. a few questions that i ponder at times ...

what makes a person like another person ? what is love ? is it becos you just need a companion ?

read a bulletin on friendster.which gave me a urge to blog . well . here's an extract.

TEN:

You feel shy whenever they're around.

NINE:

You smile when you hear their voice.

EIGHT:

When you look at them, you can't see the other people around you, you just see
him/her.

SIX:

They're all you think about.

FIVE:

You realize you're always smiling when you're looking at them.

FOUR:

You would do anything for them, just to see them.

THREE:

While reading this, there was one person on your mind this whole time.

TWO:

You were so busy thinking about that person, you
didnt notice number seven was missing

ONE:

You just scrolled up to check & are now silently laughing at yourself.

well.. that solved some of my questions .. why i everytime want to go back punggol or go somewhere i know she will be there... becos i jus wanna see her ...
why everytime i see her im sort of confused. becos im maybe shy when i see her..
why everytime my post are related to her. becos im thinking of her everytime ..

well well well .. whats love ? do you know and understand the word LOVE ?
for me i know whats love. but its hard to understand ..

PENG

hmm .. a day at ubin ...

well. today was up and down man... on the bum boat ride to ubin. for no reason or maybe the water likes us. the waves splashed at me and daniel. take note! IS ONLY ME AND DANIEL. out of the whole stupid boat. damns. it was like so pai sae lor.. hais.

once reached ubin, rented a bike started our adventure. first was to noordin beach. whow. we chiong all the way there.. took some pictures... and left. chiong abit again and we're out of breath. omg. are we that useless ? hahahahas. next destination was mammam beach .. wth. its a super big detour to the beach.the beach is something like beside noordin beach ? omg. full of slopes. sounds fun eh ? but always remember. what goes up must come down. lots of downhill slopes. also mean that there are alot of stupid uphill slopes. best thing was. patrick suddenly went mising among the team. a few seconds later, we saw hi pushing him bike up the slope ! hahahahas. well .. that happens afew time today. lols.

reached the mammam beach.. the view was good. =) after that we headed for ubin's quarry. dan says that there is a short cut. we followed. halfway ? u know wad ? trail close for renovation. went all the way back up to the beach. conquer the super duper long slopes... well on our way there saw a few things. butterfly park. that was a super nice beach with super nice view. loved that place... hahas..
till until we thought we're on the right path till we saw something familiar. a stall which sells drinks.and you know wad ? we made 1 BIG DETOUR. all thanks to mr pat ! nvm. went all the way back. and pat says he dunno where's the entrance to the quarry. wth. nvm we continued to cycle. saw a hut and an entrance. me and dan thought this was the way in but pat thinks otherwise. so we stayed there to discuss our route .. with no results. but always at this time. peng always come to the rescue.. went to ask around. and you know what we're at the front of the entrance where we wanted to head to. OMG !!

the trail was fun. saw a long lost np friend. didnt meet up for like 2 years already? hahas. chatted awhile before we started to cycle up the trek.as usual after while patrick was AGAIN missing from the team. he was pushing his bike. after awhile dan pushed his bike too.. then I started to follow the trend. hhhahahas. hmm reached midway .. parked out bikes at some ulu place. cos its impossible for us to continue to cycle all the way up. threw our bikes there and headed straight up to the "summit" highes part of ubin. took lots of pics there. hahas.

next station was supposed to be OBS school .. but divert cos pat went to see german girl's shrine .. n yeps. cycled in. the scenary there was nice too .. and saw a toilet. in the middle of the sea. hahas. took some pics there. lols. after that we headed back to the jetty for our lunch.

the food was good but the aunty's attitued sucked. 3 person dranked 5 cans of coke. can imagine huh. took bumboat after that. there comes the 2nd stupid things i did. tot an old man was the operator. collected $$ from them and gave that old uncle. then the whole boat started laughing. dots =,=. so embarrasing. found a good seat in the 1st place but becos we tot those ppl have no seat. wanted to stand behind the boat. but the uncle say no. hais. then those ppl robbed our seats. wth. no choice went inside. then i sat beside the old uncle. SO EMBARRASING SIA. dan was like keep laughing the whole journey... arrgh !

reached changi. went to buy goreng pisang. here comes the 3rd stupid things. i called an uncle, auntie. wth is wrong with me today sia. nvm headed to cp. on the way there saw pat's gd friend with her mother. lols. me n dan was laughing all the way. hahahahas. alighted at the same stop somemore. power ! nvm. went inside cp to deposit $. then bought ice cream. saw pat's good friend no. 2 again. LOLS.

went home after that. then something surprising happened. i managed to clean up my super duper messsy room. hahas. throw 1 big bag of rubbish away.. so u all can imagine huh. how clean is my room ...

overall. ubin was good. exercised have fun and being made fun off. but at least i didnt think too much today.till i pass by her bus stop.nvm. aha =) went to relax see gals,wildboar, CB leaf, some animals... and making plans for our company.

since u all have been reading. advertise abit. ubin expedition. $10 per head. inclusive of bumboat ride without bicycle rental so if ur interested drop me a msg.

hahas

well. its been the longest post tt i ever published.and maybe the happiest. lols.

PENG

saw the tag board. normal ppl will get sad huh ? well ..

i;ve thought through these 2 words many times. GIVE UP. but as we always say talking is much more easier than doing. so that happens to me. friends say its time. im stupid. no point waiting cos shes not the only gal. n yeps. sometimes to me it does knock some sense into me. but sometimes i think otherwise. u know those memories? well .. i dunno how to put it into words. if only memories are like computer when u can click delete and everything is gone.

when i see her. im at a lost. asked myself. should i walk over and say hi and start a conv ? or should i jus hide away not letting her to see me ? or i should jus act normal ? well guys. its a tough choice.

everytime see my hp. should i msg her ? should i still keep waiting ? each msg comes. i will always think. ITS HER MESSAGE ! but then it ALWAYS turn out otherwise. its kinda sad in some sense .. 1000 plus over messages yet i don bear to part with them ..

theres always something that will strike up memories of me and her . though its short but its a happy short one.

why i always think about this ? why do i always feel like this ? well.. maybe i still love her..

but nevertheless....maybe its time that i should learn something ... give up ..

PENG

let me have a break away from those stupid bldg drawings. damn it.

well its national day. do you feel more patriotic today ? hmm ..

spend my 6 hours of my day studying at singapore post. damn it. ppl take train to go out watch fireworks. bloody hell i take train to meet friends study. so anti climax sia.

well ndp was nice. or rather the Parade segment was good. as usual mass displays are boring hahas. or rather im not into those performance. Im into PARADE N FIREWORKS !

well.. fireworks are sooooo nice. had very good memories watching fireworks at real close distance. love that kind of feeling. when i watch it i couldnt say anything but to watch it with my eyes opening VERY BIG ! aha ! oh ya, its kinda romantic if u are watching it with your loved ones ... alot of things ran through my mind during the national day fireworks . lots of what ifs..

what if we're still together heading down for national day parade together jus like other couples ?
what if we;re still together watching fireworks together?
many many more what if.

why u can go with them but not me ? well.. i wonder ..

well .. as wad i normally say. good times are short. time for me to continue to fight those bloody measurements !

PENG

well.. its time......
i've got nothing else more to say...

simple is the word for today

studied Ct all the way
went sp, almost late.
test was ok
went pss after that. they were dismissed
saw her at bus stop. kinda happy kinda shock kinda lost too
went in sch with no one
went cp to eat where pat saw his gd friend
went for initial d after tt. spend a dollar for 4 games
went home till now i blogged. did nothing
after blogging shall study structures. jia lat

realised these things. i never celebrate national day for 2 years now.
reason ? becos national day week is my test week. bloody hell.

going back sch after my test. maybe jus to see her ?
well i dunno. i tend to get my priorities not right now.

HOW ?

nvm. for now. studying structures is my 1st priority.

PENG

SHIT. The commence of 6 tests and exams in 3 weeks. hais. i really got no mood to study... how how how ?

as usual went moodless state dunno issit use finish the "battery" during training. lols. taught n played with the cadets too much ... today was fun. joined in the squad. play abit here and there. or rather once i step into the squad. everything went havoc. hahahahas. poor pat n daniel taking the squad. tink they will kena high blood pressure. lols

oh. recieved A msg. think u all know is who. lols. she was supposed or rather she wanted to see the pics they took for the whole unit. so yeps. she din come. cos the np room was full of ppl. hmm .. shyt. lols.

but still not bad. exchanged a few msg. till now. LOLS. not like last time msg till i started to blog.

hmm .. slept 4 plus 5 yesterday jus to study. or rather watch movie till 2 plus 3 then study. hahas. well well well .. human needs break too =)

got a bad feeling about this term's test. hais.

till then guys...

PENG

well well well .. im into horoscopes nowadays.. its really accurate. to a certain extent. hahas. everymorning meeting my friend at outram. 1st thing. eh lend me paper for horoscopes lei. lols. surprisingly. my eyes will automatically roll towards capricon.. then aries(my horoscope).. maybe it has already turned into a habit. so .. habits are hard to change aite ?

surprisingly i recieved a msg. from her. aha ! chatted till i start to blog. dots. chatted alot of things. or rather nothing much. contradicting eh ? gd n bad news come together .. so .. FACE IT !

im still really trying to adapt to the situation now without her..
i always find this part very very dunno how to say. the feeling of u having a partner.. well.. let me elaborate more.

during games day. was kinda pissed off with some group of people so i started cursing and swearing at them .. when she heard that she erhem. hinting me not to curse n swear. some of u may think its funny. but to me. its really like sth a sweet thing to rmb. cos seldom u'll get ppl doing this .. somemore its ur love ones.

so if im moodless sometimes. friends do forgive me ... =) those who have access to this blog is more of my good friends =) and friends do keep it a secret. hahas !

oh ya. got very angry today. THE BLOODY VENDING MACHINE CHEATED MY $1 !!!! wtf. i could have bought 2 ice creams with that. damit

another thing. 2 person approached me n wk about asking us to tick what we wanna get blessed...they say they will help us get blessed or sth. 100k ppl.. wow ! btw i chose health, protection, family harmony, friendships and relationships, wisdom and intelligence, forgiveness... looks like i ticked alot ? hahas. but wonder what will the 2 person think of i ticked all... lols.. anyway got a free pen hahas.

thats all for today. aim for today. finish studying construction technology. damnit. 6 topics. info n drawings.

ADIO AMIGOS

PENG